Friday, September 21, 2012

The Ten-Year Plan.

An old adage in football goes, "If you don't shoot, you don't score."

This, of course, rings true in life, as well. If you want something, you'll have to go get it. If you don't try, you don't succeed. Simple as that.

It's also been said that you should always aim for the heavens, for if you fail you can at least reach the stars.

Basically, it means that you should always set the highest possible target for yourself in any given venture. If you somehow manage to reach it, then great. If not, well you did your best, and in all likelihood you'd have done pretty well anyway.

It's a tactic commonly used in schools, like the one I went to. The teachers told us (the entire 196-strong batch) to aim for the ultimate goal - straight A+ for SPM. They even convinced us that we really were capable of doing it. Heck, even I was convinced, and I consider myself to be a pessimistic, cynical realist. 

Of course, looking back on what eventually transpired, it struck me that 196 people out of 196 getting straight A+ for their SPM examinations was never really a realistic target. But it did seem to work, with many of us eventually receiving scholarships and sponsorships, so we'll leave it at that.

Anyway, I decided that if it worked back then, who's to say it's not going to work now? Setting high, unrealistic targets instills a kind of belief within you, driving you on to do the seemingly impossible. It motivates you to silence the critics, the ones who didn't believe you had it in you - and sometimes, the loudest voice among them comes from yourself.

Therefore, I have formulated a ten-year plan for myself. I probably won't get there (well, at least not in ten years, anyway), but you can bet I'll do whatever I can in my power to do so.

Here it goes. In ten years' time, I shall:

  • Work as a highly-paid actuary at a leading firm, raking in a five-figure salary every month.
  • Live in my own place.
  • Be married, with a kid or two.
  • Own an Audi, as well as a Volkswagen.

Ambitious? Yes. Unrealistic? Definitely. But impossible?

I'll get back to you in ten years.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Short Story #2.


Note: The following story is based on the video game Slender. Images courtesy of deviantART user Jailboticus.

It was dark, very dark. It made no difference to Josh whether his eyes were opened or not, as he could see nothing. He had no idea where he was, or how he had gotten there. He knew even less about why he seemed to be lying on his back.

Josh tried to make sense of his surroundings. He felt a slight breeze on his skin.  His fingers touched grass and earth. The scent of chlorophyll crept into his nostrils. Then, the moon came out from behind a cloud and illuminated the area, confirming his suspicions that he was in some kind of forest. One he had never seen before.

The moon then vanished just as suddenly as it had first appeared. It was then that Josh first noticed that he had some sort of flashlight in his pocket. He took it out and turned it on. It was long, black and thin – somewhat resembling the ones used by police officers. If only it were as bright.

In its dim light, Josh noticed a piece of paper attached to the side of the flashlight by some transparent tape. He removed and unfolded it to reveal instructions crudely written in black ink: Find all eight pages.

He had no idea what this meant, but he had a hunch that following the instructions would somehow provide him with answers. Josh started walking and prayed that the batteries in his flashlight wouldn’t go out.

As he walked along the forest path, Josh noticed how quiet the forest was. He could hear nothing but his own footsteps trudging along the grass and dirt. Where was all the wildlife? The frogs, the crickets, the birds – they were strangely quiet. That is, if they were even there. The silence was unnerving, and Josh felt a tingle up his spine. Even a wolf’s howl would have been welcome at this point.

Josh soon came across a clearing, and in its middle was an old, rust-colored silo. It looked as if it had been abandoned for years. As baffling as it was that there was an old, abandoned silo in the middle of a forest that did not appear to have any inhabitants, Josh found the strangest part of all to be that there weren’t any creeper plants growing all over it. Perhaps it wasn't as old and abandoned as he'd thought?

He went over to take a closer look at the unusually smooth surface. Perhaps there was some sort of chemical on the walls that prevented new life from forming on them? He walked around the cylindrical structure, occasionally swiping its surface with his finger to check for foreign substances.

His finger found nothing but rust. However, his eyes spotted something else in the faint light – a piece of paper stuck to the silo wall, which upon closer inspection appeared to be some form of Sticky Note. It was one of the eight pages, Josh realized. He shone his flashlight over it to make out what was written on it. To his horror, written in black ink and in the same crude fashion as the note on his flashlight were the words, “HELP ME”.



Josh nearly dropped the page in shock. His heart pounded against his chest, the hairs on the back of his neck stood up. There was something out there. And someone had been running from it.

He quickened his pace now. He needed to find those pages, and fast. He kept looking over his shoulder, as he now had the dreadful feeling that he was being followed.

Josh came across more clearings with strange landmarks - large rocks the size of houses, an old truck, and an abandoned shack among others. At each of these locations he found a single page, each containing messages like “FOLLOWS” and “LEAVE ME ALONE”. And every time he found a page, he could feel the temperature drop, as if to show that whatever was chasing him was getting closer.

Only one page remained, as Josh came to a collection of large oil tanks. His breathing was heavy now from running. He pushed himself on, and soon found the final page on the side of a tank. It read “DON'T LOOK...OR IT TAKES YOU”. Josh gulped.

He had finally done it. He had collected all eight pages. But now what?

Then Josh saw it – a tall, slender figure with white skin and abnormally long arms. It also appeared to be wearing a black suit – the kind people wear at funerals.

Without thinking, Josh ran. Or at least he tried to. His feet seemed to be glued to the floor. He could only stand there, horrified, as the figure moved ever closer – seemingly gliding across the forest floor. Josh realized that it had no face on its smooth, oval-shaped head.

Tentacles sprang out from the figure’s back and wrapped themselves around Josh. They pulled him towards their master, slowly, as if to amplify the terror that Josh felt at that moment. And the silence of the forest was finally broken – by a chilling, piercing scream.




Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Raya Musings.

Sunday, 19th August 2012 marked the first day of the month of Syawal in the Islamic calendar, namely 'Aidilfitri, or Hari Raya. Here in Malaysia, Malay Muslims take this time to journey to their respective hometowns, in a phenomenon of mass migration that is commonly known as 'balik kampung'.

This, however, does not apply to me. My grandparents on both my parents' sides live right nearby, so visiting them on Raya isn't really as meaningful as it should be. The only difference is, there are more people around. Oh, and more food.

I go on Facebook and I see people posting Raya wishes and Raya photos. Typical, I'd presume, even though I've only been on Facebook for several months. This great deluge of family photos, brightly-colored clothes and cute toddlers only happens once a year, and I think it's a refreshing change from the usual dross. People are spending time and enjoying themselves with the people who matter the most - family.


And now I'd like to take the time to rant, specifically about the Raya wishes. For those unfamiliar with these things, they usually go along the lines of:


"Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir batin!"

For the past few days I've received text messages with similar-sounding Raya wishes, all worded in such a way that makes it obvious that the message wasn't really personal, but had simply been one that had (presumably) been forwarded to everyone in the sender's contact list.

The last part of the above message loosely translates as "Forgive me for any wrongdoings I may or may not have committed, physically or mentally." So basically it's an apology, and yet it doesn't really feel like one.

I believe apologies should be personal, and not reduced to mere cliched catchphrases that are kept away in a metaphorical box and only taken out once a year. And in any case, why should one wait until 'Aidilfitri to say they're sorry? If you know you've done something wrong, then why not apologize straightaway? And if you haven't done anything wrong (or at least that's what you think) then why would an apology be necessary?

*****

Hari Raya pretty much overshadowed the fact that the new season of the Premier League started last weekend. Plenty of goals in that time, and I just had to be watching the one and only goalless match. Well, nothing I can do about that.

Anyway, before I end this post I'd just like to share this video, made by some Malaysian students at Vanderbilt University, Tennessee, who couldn't make it home for Raya as it coincided with the first day of classes there. Hopefully I'll be able to make one of these someday.

P.S. Look out for my friend Akmal in the video. He's the guy in the green shirt, and the pink baju Melayu at the end.