Here Goes Nothing.

The days since the SPM results were released have been somewhat eventful, to say the least. A nice change from the mind-numbing boredom I've been experiencing since leaving school.

It just wouldn't do for me to write down all that's been happening. I won't force myself. What's done is done. I suppose the one noteworthy thing I did since 21st March was to pass my driving test, and thus (finally) receiving my driver's license. Aside from that, well, I don't really feel like rambling about that.

One thing I do feel like rambling about, however, is the fact that I've recently noticed that I can be a pretty stubborn person. But in what sense, though?

Well, I have been to three educations fairs so far this year. And I now have my heart set on going for the American Degree Program offered by certain private colleges, in the field of Actuarial Science. The plan is to eventually end up at the University of Michigan, located in the town of my birth.

But there lies the problem. What if that doesn't work out? What if I don't land any scholarships, which are key to the success of this plan? Only recently I felt a new low when my SPM results didn't turn out the way I had hoped. If I didn't achieve my latest goal, would I be able to handle the disappointment?

Well, no one likes disappointment. Sadly, life has its way of ensuring that everyone gets a taste of it. Fair enough, I suppose. However, not everyone can handle disappointment properly, and that's why so many people fall along the way to success. Handling disappointment, for me, is knowing that you can't always get what you want, but what you do get is what you need.

I've just returned from a road trip - yet another sleepover in Rembau, which preceded the school's Majlis Anugerah Cemerlang. This time there were only four of us, and we had planned on getting some scholarship and career advice from the school counselor. And we did. Well, at least my three friends did. Engineering and Dentistry are easily more popular choices than Actuarial Science. And besides, I didn't really ask a lot of questions about my chosen field. I already knew what I wanted, and the stubborn part of me refused to let me change my mind.

It was just as well that during the MAC I happened to talk to a friend who was also taking Actuarial Science, and he had already received a scholarship from Maybank. Those five minutes or so were probably more beneficial to me in terms of my upcoming tertiary education than, well, the rest of the trip. Hey, at least it wasn't entirely wasted, huh?

Hopefully things will have gotten a lot less hectic, now that I don't have a whole lot planned for the next week or so. All that remains is to wait and pray that my scholarship applications were selected. Till next time then, folks.